2015 Holiday Wishlist

Hello everyone! As it gets closer and closer to Thanksgiving and Christmas I find myself wanting more and more things so this post will be about my 2015 holiday wishlist.
1. Harry Potter Mug

Seriously how cute is this Harry Potter It's junior year of high school so I know that this little mug will come in handy during midyears and finals week.You can find this mug on etsy or ebay for around $13-$15.

2. Lucky Cat Tee Shirt

I know it's winter, but I find this lucky cat crop top too cute to resist. I am Chinese so there's something very charming about having lucky cats on a pocket. If you want you could wear this on test days to bring good luck. You can get this from Tea Clothing for $12. They're also having a sale until the 23 of November.

3. Homme Femme Rip-Off Hoodie

I was very attracted to the Homme Femme La x Chanel hockey jersey that came out last year. However, it was hella expensive. It was over $100 for a sweatshirt. I recently found this rip-off from aliexpress and I think you can get it for less than $20!

4. Japanese BB Creams

I have tried a few Korean BB creams and I find that none of them are yellow enough to match my skin tone. Japanese BB creams seem to be more yellow toned and so after I run out of my current tube of BB cream I will go buy one of these. I have heard good things about the Canmake Perfect serum BB Cream. These are around $15 online. Canmake has also verified that they are cruelty-free! While not all my makeup is cruelty free, I would like to replace the majority of my collection with cruelty-free makeup after I have used them up. The Bison Baby Pink Mineral BB Cream is one of the most popular BB creams in Japan and is only $10 online.
5. Circle Lenses

I haven't been wearing circle lenses lately because my brown circle lenses have expired and so I threw them away. I used to be into really colorful lenses like blue lenses and pink lenses, but lately I have been going for more of a natural look. These lenses are brown, but the nice spiderweb design makes them interesting. These are the Geo WT-B94 lenses. You can get this from circle lens sites like lensvillage.com ore kpoplens.com for around $20.
7. Half United Necklace

In my opinion, this is the prettiest thing on this entire list. This is the Paddy DeMarco necklace from Half United, a clothing and jewelry company that uses the money made from sales to feed hungry children in places such as Fiji and Cambodia. It is also the most expensive thing on this list at $52. However, by spending $52 you will provide 7 meals to a child in need.
7. La Rive In Woman Eau de Parfum

One of my favorite scents ever is the Giorgio Armani Eau de Parfum in Sì However, that it is insanely expensive. I think a 3.4 oz is $120. Also, Giorgio Armani tests on animals. La Rive In Woman is said to be very similar to Sì. La Rive is also a European drugstore brand. The EU has banned animal testing and La Rive has also released a statement saying they do not test on animals. La Rive is also way less expensive. It's around $20 with shipping for a 3 oz bottle, wayyy less.
6. Mystery Dress

This is a super cute white skater dress. It is completely mesh and a bit translucent. The dress she is wearing in the video is from a store called M Factory in South Korea. It's a very basic dress but I cannot find anything similar to it in the US for the life of me and it's driving me crazy.

So this concludes my Holiday Wishlist for 2015. Happy Holidays!

Dreams, Aspirations, and Goals (Junior year)

HELLOOOOOOOO!!!!!

Wow, it has been a long time since I last blogged, since any of us have blogged here.
For me, Sophmore year officially ended about a month ago. I got my report card about two weeks ago, decent grades not bad. But now, it's the summer before junior year.
Even up to a month ago, I was freaking out about not having anything to do this summer! All of the interships I had applied to didn't accept me, I hadn't gotten any news about the job I had applied for, nor did I get any news about my volunteer applications which was 100% rude and panic inducing. I actually ended up landing my job pretty last minute and I was given two weeks to chill with my friends and hang before work started.
I seriously should have planned out my summer during those two weeks.
After work started (and it's only been one week) I have absolutely no time. I slightly regret getting my job but I'm getting paid to work with cute (some annoying) four year olds. Yes yes it's high maintenance but like its only 8-1:30 everyday (at least for me, Shruti has it 8-4:30 AND we get paid the same amount as of our knowledge so far... because we haevn't gotten our paychecks yet). It's $800 for all of our hours which is definitely less than minimum pay but, hey I'll take what I can get and it isn't too demanding of a job.
But, I will mention this again, it's the summer before junior year.
We have test prep to do and I have a ton of summer homework due to AP classes. The SAT and ACT are both changing this year WOOHOO! And I am not at a financial leisure to take both multiple times. I have to study for both take mock tests this summer and figure out which one I do better on and which one I'm more comfortable with to achieve the best scores possible for the future.
I have three AP courses next year. AP US History (which is bull because it's mandatory for all juniors and I have absolutely no skill nor understanding of history at all. Sure it's all memorization but it just doesn't work for me. I can memorize something in science I have no understanding of at all but in history it just doesn't make any sense and does not stick), AP European Literature (apparently my teacher is a stickler for grammar and I suck at grammer), and AP Biology (the only AP I might do well in). As you can see my schedule is already off to a great start. I haven't officially gotten it yet but as of right now I have APUSH 4 times a week, one time being a double period, the same goes for AP Euro (4x/week, one - double), for AP Bio though... I have it four times a week.... But three of those are double periods. I love biology so I am so so thrilled that I got in as a junior and I will have so much fun in this class but I am just going to rue my schedule if they dare to put my other AP doubles on a day I have an AP Bio double. I will die.
I also have mandatory Religion (4x/week, no doubles) and Religion is fine, but in junior year we have the dreaded Junior Religion presentation. It's a full period presentation in which you take something and use the religious context and present. I, for one, am very good at informational presentations and am horrible at including the audience. I don't understand why they need to. My intonation and description should make them interested no matter what (I'm totally kidding but I would consider myself a good speaker but I am not outgoing so what a waste of talent amirite).
Then I have Pre-Calc/AB Calc which is an honors math class (5x weeks, no doubles). And French. Goodness I hate French. I hate it with a passion. I hate it so so so so so so much. I suck at it and I hate it there is no reason I will do well in it. This will be my last year of french goodness sake get away from me.
OH, I'm also taking a Conceptual Physics class because I am a science freak and I want to take all of the science courses (except engineering it won't fit in my schedule next year probably) so AP Physics, AP Chem, and AP Environment are goals for senior year.
Hopefully I'll get an elective, but I feel as of right now that's too much but I really do want film. I love it but I don't know where I would get the time to do it mainly because I get way too into it.

My schedule comes out a day before classes start so... This is how it's going down as of right now.

I have five days of school a week, nine periods a day, 40 minute periods with five minutes in between.
= 45 periods a week
AP Bio = 7 periods a week
APUSH = 5 periods a week
AP Euro = 5 periods a week
Physics = 5 periods a week
Pre-Calc/AB Calc = 5 periods a week
French = 4 periods a week
Religion = 4 periods a week
Gym = 2 periods a week (unless I do a school sport)
= 8 free periods a week
That's alright.... That is going to be a change from this year. I had 11 this year and omg it was heaven. In Freshman year I had 6 and I wanted to cry everyday because of Latin oh my geesus my teacher was a genius so it was so hard to keep up.
If I get film = 2 periods a week
I will have 6 frees a week and that is probably not a good idea considering I had such a hard time in Freshman year, and the academia is much more challenging this year than last. And this year counts for it all.
For colleges...

Continuing in another post!

Makeup N00b

I really really like makeup. I would say about 50% of my YouTube subscriptions are makeup related. Ok maybe not that many but it's a lot. I also own a lot of makeup. In fact, my mom has banned me from buying more makeup because she thinks I own too much. I don't even wear that much makeup on a daily basis. I'm not even sure why I own so much makeup. On a school day I usually just wear a bit of bb cream and mascara. So let's go through my makeup collection just for lolz.

Eyeshadows:

Lorac Pro Palette 2

Fake Lorac Pro Palette 1

The Body Shop Shimmer Cubes #6

Too Faced Natural Eyes Palette - the old one

Chinatown brand eyeshadow

Wet n Wild eyeshadow tht cost like $3

Bobby Brown mini eyeshadow palette

NYC eyeshadow that was also like $3

Face:

Some bb cream from The Face Shop

Lips:

ALL DUH MAYBELLINE BABY LIPS

Some Revlon type chubby stick 

Nyx lipglosses

Blush:

I use my old lipsticks as blush #rachet

Oh I also have some black eyeliner and mascara

The End

Turning 16

My 16th birthday was this week. You guys want to know what I did on my birthday? I cut school. I cut school, took the train into Brooklyn and I took photos.

Why?

Why did I do this? Because I'm in that teenage stage where I hate school. I know everyone hates school. Everyone has responsibilities. I'm a teenager, I should be growing up, but I don't want to. What's the point of going to school if I'm not motivated? I'm going to school because I have to. I spend every class criticizing my teachers, methodically taking notes, not learning anything. Why? Because I don't want to. Between friendships falling apart and family issues and low grades, my year has been shit. I did it because I wanted to find inspiration again.

When I posted my photos onto Facebook, I had some people telling me that I was an inspiration. I had inspired them. Every birthday they were going to do something epic, to live life to the fullest. That made me happy.

I was an inspiration. I never thought I would be an inspiration. The people around me are my inspiration, but I never thought I could be someone else's inspiration. I was just being a stupid teenager. Running away from responsibilities to do a hobby. I had traded a day of "education" for a day of adventure. I had fun. That's all there really was to it. But then I realized, maybe something so easy for me was hard for others. Maybe they thought you had to be bold or daring to do something like that. But all you really need is one moment of impulse and then, don't wait for it to go away. Ride it.

Of course, impulsiveness is only good in moderation. I urge everyone to practice self control. You might not like it, but it will help you in your academic and professional life.

One thing that I've learned as I've grown up is that everything changes. I've changed. I've recently updated my blogger account and deleted everything on my embarrassing middle school profile. I've liked to think that I've matured. I'm happy with myself. I'm very happy. Happier than I've been in a long time.

Update: Sophomore Year

I think I'm going to start blogging more often as it's a good way to vent out my feelings in a healthy way. I've learned a lot of things Sophomore year.

1. Friendships don't last forever
2015 has been the year of broken friendships for me. Plenty of my friends have split up and I have had my own share. Quite a few bonds have been broken.
2. It doesn't take a lot to break inertia
Sometimes all there needs to be is a trigger of some sort and people are going at each others throats. It's the pent up frustration that they feel and all it takes is one moment of anger that can cause an explosion.
3. I'm glad I go to a school with over 3,000 students
No one has any idea what goes on in a lot of people's lives. People have reputations, people can be popular, but a lot of personal issues that people have don't spread very far. Of course there are a few exceptions, but in a school where I can barely name half of the 750 students in my grade, it doesn't really matter what anyone else is doing outside my niche.
4. Drama brings out the worst in people
5. Drama also brings out the best in people
6. Drama helps you find your true friends
All three of these are valid lessons in my eyes. I never wanted to talk about my problems with people because I know that people are just inherently flaky and biased. I found out this year that a lot of people have a good moral compass and will tell you their true opinions.

I felt quite bad last night as I was ranting to a close friend about all my feelings. I spent a good amount of time just venting out my feelings. I then learned about some more important things that happened inside my school that I won't disclose for privacy reasons. I immediately felt horrible because it involved a person who hundreds of students looked up to. I thought it was ironic because I was debating about whether to unleash my anger or not. There was external peace, but I was not at peace within myself. After ranting, I felt more at peace and then this huge thing with the school and the teacher who got arrested happened and it just reminded me about how chaotic the world is. Which brings me to the 7th thing I learned.

7. Internal peace is just as important as external peace.
I realized that when I have lost internal peace, it affects the way I act around others. I become moody and unresponsive. In turn people treat me differently. Don't be peaceful to please others. Your feelings are important too.