Update: Sophomore Year

I think I'm going to start blogging more often as it's a good way to vent out my feelings in a healthy way. I've learned a lot of things Sophomore year.

1. Friendships don't last forever
2015 has been the year of broken friendships for me. Plenty of my friends have split up and I have had my own share. Quite a few bonds have been broken.
2. It doesn't take a lot to break inertia
Sometimes all there needs to be is a trigger of some sort and people are going at each others throats. It's the pent up frustration that they feel and all it takes is one moment of anger that can cause an explosion.
3. I'm glad I go to a school with over 3,000 students
No one has any idea what goes on in a lot of people's lives. People have reputations, people can be popular, but a lot of personal issues that people have don't spread very far. Of course there are a few exceptions, but in a school where I can barely name half of the 750 students in my grade, it doesn't really matter what anyone else is doing outside my niche.
4. Drama brings out the worst in people
5. Drama also brings out the best in people
6. Drama helps you find your true friends
All three of these are valid lessons in my eyes. I never wanted to talk about my problems with people because I know that people are just inherently flaky and biased. I found out this year that a lot of people have a good moral compass and will tell you their true opinions.

I felt quite bad last night as I was ranting to a close friend about all my feelings. I spent a good amount of time just venting out my feelings. I then learned about some more important things that happened inside my school that I won't disclose for privacy reasons. I immediately felt horrible because it involved a person who hundreds of students looked up to. I thought it was ironic because I was debating about whether to unleash my anger or not. There was external peace, but I was not at peace within myself. After ranting, I felt more at peace and then this huge thing with the school and the teacher who got arrested happened and it just reminded me about how chaotic the world is. Which brings me to the 7th thing I learned.

7. Internal peace is just as important as external peace.
I realized that when I have lost internal peace, it affects the way I act around others. I become moody and unresponsive. In turn people treat me differently. Don't be peaceful to please others. Your feelings are important too.